So now this is the only way i could express myself. In my mind ,there's actually thousands of thoughts slashing through. How i wish i could stop thinking of you for one second. And i know i hurt you badly but i don't know how can i regain it back. i never in my life expect this would happen to me and both me and you know i don't trust guys easily. Its like a whirlwind inside my head now. I want to turn things around. This is because I was being so selfish, thinking about myself all the time. Wanting the freedom and all when i already have it. Perhaps, i could never forget about you. You were my all time best friend and my companion and among all, you're always the best. You were there for me regardless how busy you were. I can't thank you for more.
Life, being the greatest. But mine, being the worst. Nowadays, it's getting dull and each day i consequently remind myself to stay strong. Problems i couldn't handle is like torture. Thinking back, i did a mistake but can't be rewind. "Such a life, why bother?" , i sometimes ask myself. This is the second time I felt so heartbroken. It doesn't crack into a million pieces but turns into dust like the ones in thin air. Argh! I can't find someone whom i could blabber my feelings out! Oh how I wish I have a second me. The insecureness around me degraded my life state. I used to be a happy-go-lucky person. But now, it's all "happy-go-lucky" , if you know what I mean. I want to have my self confidence back as it used to be. Everything seems to be my downpour now. Get out from my life you asshole! I realize I don't need anybody to regain Me back. I could do it myself, i believe. Someday, you'll see.